o man i was so glad that i came how early today, if not i will miss this chance. so glad i was able to see you.... you like had an disappearing act, did not see you for nearly four months. and i meant it four months. hello. everyboday get to see theirs like almost everyday, weekly, or something, me once in a big blue moon. i was so glad to see you that you were ok. yup... seeing you give me a sense of relief that you are ok, nothing bad really happened and so on. yup.... i was glad... i so happy now. yup... but your words are forever the same for me, study hard as we parted at the door... yup. i can see the emotions in your eyes rising up... why must you go.... why... i want to know, i'm curious... was talking to my sis about this yesterday... and we want to know why... it's been ages... if it wasn't for today the last time we saw you was like chinese new year that day 29 jan 2006 where we gathered at our cousins house. why???? i want to know... i so kept in the dark with nothing told to me. knowing bits and pieces i have to slowly pin it up together just to find out the whole thing. and the puzzle i now have is not even close to a quarter of the whole thing. i know you will just say why you bothering about this, you are supposed to study your O's this year. study hard. helloo... i know that, but how can i rest with too much of going on, yup. you are like one of the thing that make me of who i am now, being part of me most in the past when was younger. how can i not know. HOW CAN I??? pls i really want to know... i really, my sis tooo... WE BOTH WANT THE FULL STORY! MY SIS AND I, PLS TELL US. I DO NOT WANT TO BE KEPT IN THE DARK LE. PLS LET ME REST. AND THE ONLY WAY IS YOU TO SAY OUT. i'm am like only 15, 16 end of this year and have to go through this... this was slowly starting when i was 12 and officially starts at 14 why me. WHY GOD??? WHY ME??? WHY THIS??? PLS ANSWER ME. I AM SUPER CURIOUS. ARE YOU TELLING ME SOMETHING, BUT I DON'T SEEM TO GET IT. and it has been years and really years. i don't mind contiue on waiting but not that long... YES! I DESPERSATE FOR THE ANSWER!!!! and this is my true feelings. REALLY.


my six months of freedom offically starts tmr 6am... but i don't feel that fantastic as i expected to. i not sure why... and want to know why... yup. WHY WHY TELL ME WHY??? is this good or bad i'm myself not sure.


can't believe i typed all this... but i need my feelings out of me. sis is not here... so who can i share with... and i don't want to disturb you cause you are tired. yup... so nice right.... say YES! haha... too thick skin le. haha


you took the weight of the world on your shoulders(x2)
you did it all for me(x2)